Well... I have to admit I've been bad the past 2 weeks. And... to make things worse I didn't stick to my blog! Shock! Horror!

Basically after the snow I talked myslef into thinking running would be out of the question ha! By the Wednesday it had mostly cleared up. But that was husbands 30th birthday and so we had a jam packed day - starting with a full fry up breakfast we then went out for the day and went indoor sky diving. We followed that up with  a kebab and a visit to Krispy Kremes where we indulged in yummy doughnuts. I was tired and stuffed with fatty food but the girls convinced me to go to the running session so off I went. Due to the snow we changed from the usual routine of warm up exercises and running between lamp posts and went into a full on jog as much as you possibly can to keep warm. I was feeling positive about giving it a good go and also a little guilty about all the fat food I'd eaten so gave it my all. But I ended up with a stitch and feeling sick! All I could taste was doughnuts mixed with kebab! After the session I checked my app - I was feeling like I must have made a good improvement on time even though I hadnt ran much further than normal. Nope! Not at all! Disappointed!

I tried to put it behind me and look forward to the Saturday session in the park. That was the day of my husbands birthday party so I had alot of arranging to do but still wanted to go for the session first. I found myself moaning all the way through the session and wishing it was over. What was wrong with me!?!? I think I had so much on my mind a knew that it was going to be a busy day and night so didn't have the motivation. Again, I did worse than usual :(

By Monday I had decided to put that week behind me and try harder in the next sessions. Then I had 2 pretty rubbish days at work (Tues & Wed). I was so tired by the time I got home I wasn't in the mood for anything. The other 2 girls couldn't make the Wednesday session but I was determined I would still go. By the time I had got home and changed I had talked myself out of going. I knew I had to work a 14 hour shift the day after so decided I needed an early night. I still had Saturdays session after all!

Saturday morning came around fast! And... guess what.... I didn't even set my alarm to get up! So that's another session missed! But after a nice relaxing weekend I'm ready to get back on track! I feel really guilty now for missing the sessions and disappointed in myself.

So with only 13 weeks to go I am going to work really hard! I cant make it to this Wednesday session because I have to work so I have arranged to go out for a run tomorrow with a couple of girls to get me back into a routine. I've also arranged to go on Thursday too - and I will be dragging myself to Saturday's park session NO MATTER WHAT!

I am feeling so guilty but I only have myself to blame! We took the dogs out for a walk today and I had a little jog around the park with them and realised how silly I had been to miss both sessions. It's just hard sometimes to work full time and fit all the other stuff in. But instead of dwelling on the past I'm looking to the future. I'm still looking forward to the 10k race and I'm ready to put the effort in again.

Let's do it!!!!!